My New Years Resolution for 2011

Its time for me to be more honest with myself and with others. I need to be more straight forward, saying things they are, stand up for myself more, and stop holding in my feelings and letting others win.

The 12 Days of GROSSmas

12 Yellow Snowballs

11 Farting Reindeer

10 Santa butt cracks

9 moldy fruitcakes

8 sweaty long johns

7 frozen boogers

5 bathroom rings

4 mooning elves

3 chunky eggnogs

2 tinsel hairballs

And a SECOND carrot on a snowman!

Have yourself a yucky little GROSSmas!
(And a very Merry Christmas!)

My Bucket List

So I was reading an old journal of mine back like when I started high school and I found an entry that I did in a seminary class. We were to write a list of things/places to see before we die. In class we only had to write down ten things. I don't want my list just to be ten things. So I wrote more....
and here is my list. Purple means I've completed it.

1. Attend College (Does 1 semester count?)
2. Visit Seattle
3. Travel across Europe
4. See historical places in WW2 (D-Day, Auschwitz-Birkenau Concentration Camp, etc)
5. Do Baptisms For The Dead in a Temple outside of Utah (completed in the LA Temple)
6. Try Sushi (don't care for it)
7. See a show on Broadway
8. Get at least 1 meaningful tattoo
9. Overcome a fear
10. Get married
11. Go on a Cruise
12. Be a Disney Character @ Disneyland
13. Go for a ride in a Hot Air Balloon
14. Write a book
15.  SUPER BOWL
16. Own my dream car
17. Be Debt Free
18. See the 7 Wonders of the World
19. Record a song
20. Spend a day at a Spa
21. Own my dream house
22. Attend a film premiere
23. Be in the newspaper
24. Be 2 places at once (Oregon & Washington)
25. Fall in love (Has happened more than once.)
26. Kiss in the rain
27. See a Cirque De Sole in Las Vegas
28. Stay at my favorite hotel in Las Vegas
29. Visit Yellowstone National Park
30. Be a parent
31. Fly in a private jet
32. See the ruins in Mexico
33. Attend Fashion Week
34. Win an award (Emmy, Oscar, Grammy, or Golden Globe)
35. Send a message in a bottle
36. Learn a different language
37. Learn to drive Stick Shift
38. Watch all the movies that have won Best Motion Picture at the Oscars
39. Live in a foreign country
40. Learn to Ballroom dance
41. Go shopping on Rodeo Drive
42. Start a blog
43. Own a rescue dog
44. See my favorite band in concert
45. Attend Comic Con in San Diego
46. Go to every Twilight Saga Midnight Premiere (3 Down, 2 more to go!)
47. Attend New Years Eve in Times Square
48. Meet my Idol
49. Eat at a Celebrity Restaurant
50. Do something I told myself I would never do

I've got a lot things on my list. Gotta get working!!!

Feelings

You are hanging out with your best buds

having tons of fun

when...

BAM!

this feeling of loneliness and sadness

overcomes you like a ton of bricks.

You try you best to not let your friends see

but it causes you to isolate yourself from them

and you become a party pooper.

You wish you could join back in with them

but you can't because you don't know how

to make this feeling go away.

The only thing you can think of doing is cry.

There is no logical reason for this,

you can't think of a reason why this feeling is here.

This happened to me yesterday and it isn't going away.

The feeling is also making me easily annoyed

and making me anti social.

Yet I wish there was someone there

who understood what was going on 

and help me get through it.

Instead,

I suffered alone.

The Best!!!

I kissed a lot of frogs before I realized I was supposed to be kissing a soldier!

I couldn't ask for a better man in my life. 

Can't wait to be by his side again after Christmas.

Happy 9 months!